Killing Some Time While Chanting
My mind derives great pleasure from thinking. So I have a problem when I chant because while I am chanting my mind goes pleasure hunting and wants to contemplate so many interesting thoughts and not listen to the holy name. This happens most often when I am bored with chanting. It is sometimes really difficult to just hear the mantra because my mind says, “This is not interesting. Think of something interesting, like, what you are going to say in your next class, or how you are going to do this or that project in new creative ways.” My mind resists just listening to me chant because it’s always looking for something to ponder, something to do. And when it starts pondering some interesting thoughts, even though my lips keep moving with the mantra, I disconnect myself from my chanting and live in my little mental dream world. I realize I often do this when I am bored chanting in order to “kill some time” during japa and keep myself entertained. After all, just thinking of the mantra and nothing else can sometimes be torture for the mind.
